where I have been, and what's going on.
I have been obviously less anxious to post in the last few months, and I think I've made it clear why:
I'm not feeling the same as I used to. When i lived at my mom's house, I didn't give a shit about much. I lived day to day, check to check; now I live for my future, and well... still paycheck to paycheck; now I have a lot to worry about.
With the economy as it is, is it any wonder that I have a slight worry of losing my job? I would think not... yet that's not a worry... at all. I do a LOT for the company I work for right now, and I'd be damn surprised if they decided to let me go, instead of one the deadbeats that work there. But no, I worry of my future, my family, my friends, my girlfriend, and my bills... especially of my bills.
In terms of school, work and bills, I have yet to fall behind. I am keeping on top of these things very well. Unfortunately, this means I am ALWAYS doing one of the three (although bills just takes a moment to write a fucking check). So. The run down of my time consumption is:
Everyday I wake up and go to work until four. It takes a half hour to get home. On Mondays and Wednesdays I have class in the evening (Monday until 9 and Wednesday until 9:30 (I'm in class right now doing an assignment on, ironically, blogging)). By the time i get home, it's homework until I pass out (after eating of course). Tuesday is homework night. Thursday I play Magic: The Gathering (I'm ranked high in the states player list from the State Championship... so I treat this as something I need to continue doing). M:TG is soon to stop, because I don't really care anymore (God, my parentheticals are fucking liars!). Not really that I don't care, but that I can't keep spending money on this, even if I'm pretty good, just to play cards with a group of people every week. I know I'll never win a big tournament, so this is really just me wasting time, and practicing a stupid ass game. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday are homework days, laundry days and sometimes I will go down to visit my girlfriend and other friends back around my old home. If I do this, though, I get no laundry done, and my homework is pushed off to Sunday.
My Monday night teacher literally told me that he gives a LOT of homework because we only meet once a week, so he feels like he should give us MORE than the class he teaches three times a week, just to keep us on top of our shit. WTF is that nonsense. It's ridiculous how much he assigns. But alas, I do it, and I do it well. I have straight A's right now. I swear to fucking god, I'm not lying. As for work, outside of work... well...
I am trying to do an ass load for this company that isn't required of me. I have set up, and am running (running is a loose term here... I merely chime in from time to time when I think people slack a little bit) a web series broadcast on YouTube. Aside from that, I am in contact with a couple bands to try and get press/all access passes to Film them for said YouTube account. (Oh, this YouTube account... it's a partner on YT, so each hit equals dolla bills yo). So far, I've been given 1; I'll be filming that show on March 8. (anyone out there who can't tell who i work for... this is a huge hint, if you're curious and nosey). ALSO, I am in contact with Vans to get to be a vendor with the company I'm working for at this years Warped Tour. That's a hassle. They are full up, but I'm trying to snake my way in anyway... wish me luck.
Alright, I'm busy, you get it, but why should you care? Well if you're someone I'm supposed to be writing with, than you might care because this is why I haven't been writing. I'm legitimately bogged. And I am legitimately sorry for being such a slacker on this, but you all much realize (and please understand I want this to come off as the complete opposite of hostile), I have some priorities, and even though writing is my dream and my life, I can't afford to mess up what I have. My school is to better my writing, and my work is helping me with broadcasting and film, so really, I'm becoming all around better at what I love, so in the future when we continue working together, it will be even better. By "in the future", however, I hope I mean in a day or so, but please don't hold that as a promise.
Tomorrow I'll post a poem. I wrote one the other night, but I don't have my notepad on me at the moment, so to write it now, my wording would be off.
Take care,
-Marshall.
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I'm not feeling the same as I used to. When i lived at my mom's house, I didn't give a shit about much. I lived day to day, check to check; now I live for my future, and well... still paycheck to paycheck; now I have a lot to worry about.
With the economy as it is, is it any wonder that I have a slight worry of losing my job? I would think not... yet that's not a worry... at all. I do a LOT for the company I work for right now, and I'd be damn surprised if they decided to let me go, instead of one the deadbeats that work there. But no, I worry of my future, my family, my friends, my girlfriend, and my bills... especially of my bills.
In terms of school, work and bills, I have yet to fall behind. I am keeping on top of these things very well. Unfortunately, this means I am ALWAYS doing one of the three (although bills just takes a moment to write a fucking check). So. The run down of my time consumption is:
Everyday I wake up and go to work until four. It takes a half hour to get home. On Mondays and Wednesdays I have class in the evening (Monday until 9 and Wednesday until 9:30 (I'm in class right now doing an assignment on, ironically, blogging)). By the time i get home, it's homework until I pass out (after eating of course). Tuesday is homework night. Thursday I play Magic: The Gathering (I'm ranked high in the states player list from the State Championship... so I treat this as something I need to continue doing). M:TG is soon to stop, because I don't really care anymore (God, my parentheticals are fucking liars!). Not really that I don't care, but that I can't keep spending money on this, even if I'm pretty good, just to play cards with a group of people every week. I know I'll never win a big tournament, so this is really just me wasting time, and practicing a stupid ass game. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday are homework days, laundry days and sometimes I will go down to visit my girlfriend and other friends back around my old home. If I do this, though, I get no laundry done, and my homework is pushed off to Sunday.
My Monday night teacher literally told me that he gives a LOT of homework because we only meet once a week, so he feels like he should give us MORE than the class he teaches three times a week, just to keep us on top of our shit. WTF is that nonsense. It's ridiculous how much he assigns. But alas, I do it, and I do it well. I have straight A's right now. I swear to fucking god, I'm not lying. As for work, outside of work... well...
I am trying to do an ass load for this company that isn't required of me. I have set up, and am running (running is a loose term here... I merely chime in from time to time when I think people slack a little bit) a web series broadcast on YouTube. Aside from that, I am in contact with a couple bands to try and get press/all access passes to Film them for said YouTube account. (Oh, this YouTube account... it's a partner on YT, so each hit equals dolla bills yo). So far, I've been given 1; I'll be filming that show on March 8. (anyone out there who can't tell who i work for... this is a huge hint, if you're curious and nosey). ALSO, I am in contact with Vans to get to be a vendor with the company I'm working for at this years Warped Tour. That's a hassle. They are full up, but I'm trying to snake my way in anyway... wish me luck.
Alright, I'm busy, you get it, but why should you care? Well if you're someone I'm supposed to be writing with, than you might care because this is why I haven't been writing. I'm legitimately bogged. And I am legitimately sorry for being such a slacker on this, but you all much realize (and please understand I want this to come off as the complete opposite of hostile), I have some priorities, and even though writing is my dream and my life, I can't afford to mess up what I have. My school is to better my writing, and my work is helping me with broadcasting and film, so really, I'm becoming all around better at what I love, so in the future when we continue working together, it will be even better. By "in the future", however, I hope I mean in a day or so, but please don't hold that as a promise.
Tomorrow I'll post a poem. I wrote one the other night, but I don't have my notepad on me at the moment, so to write it now, my wording would be off.
Take care,
-Marshall.
Poem.
And I do. A new poem.
Written for no reason, and about no one specific:
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Written for no reason, and about no one specific:
You say you love me, but I know better
You try to take my hand, but I know better
I grab your hand, even though I know better
I tell you I love you, even though I know better
Tomorrow's gonna be the same... never ever any better.
I call it, "You're not making this easy for me."
Well, that's all for now; maybe I'll post again in a few weeks, to give an update on school and work, since I'm leaving quite a large bit of my life behind closed doors recently.
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