Once again the thought of school.
And why not? Shit isn't going too well (but not too bad at this point either, I suppose), and I need something to change.
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So why not make the change back to school? When I moved I changed counties, so going back to the same community college isn't viable, however, I live pretty close to the community college in this area, so I could easily switch.
This time I wouldn't fuck around. Not like last time. Last time I was stupid. I pissed away a great chance I had to do something. Furthurmore, I would be paying for the classes this time, not my parents. If I were to fuck up this second time around, I would be paying for it in more ways than one.
But once again I come back to the question of, what would I do? Why would I be going, if I don't know what I wanna do. A while ago I wanted to go to med school, and I'd love to do that. I would love to help people and love to study the brain... but I know I couldn't handle that school... I'm way too squeamish. Blood freaks me out.
I could be a programmer, it's easy and I'm pretty good at it... except for the math... there's a lot of math in programming... I'm not good with math.
business administraion could work, but that's a lot of math too...
I could do english, but that's a lot of writing I won't want to do. Even if I do my best to get everything done I'm supposed to, I can't see myself writing all the essays and shit.
So... what's left (that I actually like)...
Nothin.
But, I like programming enough.
it's coming
something big... it's coming. Soon.
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Very soon.
My lack of posts has created an excess of thought in my head - therefore, I will be doing something soon. Hopefully very soon.
NOt saying what... just saying it'll be good and it'll make at least myself happy.
settling in might take a little longer...
So... i may not be here much longer. My dad may be buying a house and I'll be moving in there. I might be moving in with him.
It would be just him and I.
He mentioned that tonight and it's got me thinking... I'm causing a shit load of problems by being here...
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It would be just him and I.
He mentioned that tonight and it's got me thinking... I'm causing a shit load of problems by being here...
this is middle class/military again?
I was talking to my dad the other night and he said, "There have been times when I was fat with money, and times when I was tight on money... And I feel more comfortable when I know I have no money. I am broke every two weeks after I pay my bills, and I like it that way. I don't like having a lot of extra money around. I don't know what to do with it."
That is middle class.
Fuck you, John McCain and your five million dollar middle class structure and your seven fucking houses.
I know I haven't posted much last month, and I'm hoping to come back into the swing of writing everyday now that I'm settling in. Part of settling in here is realizing I'm really fucking poor and there is nothing I can do to fix that... unless...
I might look into the military again. My buddy is leaving next month, and if I rush, I could join the Navy with him and I could do the same job (our scores are almost identical -- and almost perfect cause we're smarties). He is going to be an Aeronautical Engineer. If we both do that, we would go through all the training at the same time, and if we're lucky get put on the same ship working together. After four years we could be get out and get jobs making some big bucks.
Of course, the downside to military is little time for writing...
I'll post more later tonight when I think more about this and talk it over with both him and my girlfriend...
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That is middle class.
Fuck you, John McCain and your five million dollar middle class structure and your seven fucking houses.
I know I haven't posted much last month, and I'm hoping to come back into the swing of writing everyday now that I'm settling in. Part of settling in here is realizing I'm really fucking poor and there is nothing I can do to fix that... unless...
I might look into the military again. My buddy is leaving next month, and if I rush, I could join the Navy with him and I could do the same job (our scores are almost identical -- and almost perfect cause we're smarties). He is going to be an Aeronautical Engineer. If we both do that, we would go through all the training at the same time, and if we're lucky get put on the same ship working together. After four years we could be get out and get jobs making some big bucks.
Of course, the downside to military is little time for writing...
I'll post more later tonight when I think more about this and talk it over with both him and my girlfriend...
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