Scribble@Work

My Last blogs were titled, "1337", "I have a learned something", "Holeh Sheet!", "OMG SHARKS!", "Name the Movie #2", and "Funny Videos"... these are boredom blogs. I write cause I'm bored and don't feel like finishing anything. I've already started to write.


This is a boredom blog.

Can you find the leet? PS. it was the radio edit.

You can not play sad music on a ukulele. it all makes smiles.

Look at that masterful Favicon up dere! It sais SAW! LiEK THATS MA SITE!

Yeah... I made a little favicon. I really hate that blogger B, so now it's a crappy SAW icon (Scribble At Work, not the movie, fools).

Give me a week or two, when I get photoshop I'll make a better one.

That's my bands name. When I say band, I mean a fake thing that me and my friend say is our band, when really we are just pretending we have a band. if this band were real, I would play the ukulele, harmonica, trumpet and I would sing. My buddy would play guitar, bass, drums (depending on the song) and also sing.

One of the songs I have written for this band, is called Jerk Off Hardcore (Get Some Semen On the Floor)... here are the lyrics:

It was a gay day.
Today was gay
your so gay

(background during musical interlude) I fucking jerked it twice since this song started

Jerk Off, Hardcore
Let's get some semen on the floor.
Make the carpet really hard
Like... maybe its made of rock or something.

That could be a fucking number one hit! Yeah. We don't have all stupid songs, though... here's a Song/Poem I wrote a while back that would be one of our smash hits (title: This World, Her Beauty):

This is the world as I see it
Nothing more than a tree in the summer
And there is only one truth
Its that I love her.

There may be more out there than I know
But what does that matter if I already have her.

Shes beautiful, shes amazing
Shes everything I wanted in this...
Shes beautiful, shes amazing
Shes everything I've ever asked for
I wouldn't give her up for anything.

Your voice and your smile
For them id travel miles
I don't care where you are
I want to be there too.

I love you baby
I love you
I love.

She loved that one (if you don't know who she is, read my blog more often), but I think it could be better... oh well. I'm just the writer.

That's all I have to say for now (except that I'm only ending this blog so I can go out and ACTUALLY buy a ukulele and a new harmonica), Take care everyone.
Marshall.

"Bastian!"

Oh, and the answer to Monday's movie is, of course, "Bio-Dome"

Don't forget to head on over to Youtube.com/disgracerpg

The poetry isn't flowing.

The two serious songs I'm working on may take a little longer than expected, basically.
Of course, it's easy to write a dumb song about jerking off, or one about someone failing the first grade, but not about learning and growing and loving, or about what tie the whisper knot will be about... they will be up soon, just not yet

in addition to the song I will be writing from that poem the other day, I will be brining you lyrics to songs like "Johny Watermelon-head (failed the first grade)" and "jerk off hardcore (put your semen on the floor)". lastly I will bring you a serious song called "Tie the whisper knot".

can't say a.ymore right now, im posting from my cellphone and I gota get back to work

Yeah. That beastly hate machine pictured on the right. Now I don't know about you, but I think he's a little too bad ass to be played by one of the funniest actors around right now. Either way, bad ass or funny, I'm going to see X-Men Origins: Wolverine just for this little nugget of joy.

That little poem bit I posted yesterday... I'm gonna take it and make it better... make it a song... I will post that by the end of the week.


Finally, I am once again extending an offer to collaborate on a story & script with the intentions of filming and editing it. Anyone interested in making a movie contact me. Hell, contact me if you wanna help out at all or be in it or anything at all.

"Free Mahi-Mahi! FREE MAHI-MAHI!"

Name the movie and the character (dont' cheat ya cheaters)

I'm tired of just complaining on this thing so I'm making changes.

I will still complain, of course; it's a blog... isn't that what they are really for? But I want to start having fun with this. I don't quite know what I'm going to do with it yet, but I do know I'm gonna play little games and shit with the (nonexistent) people that read this... starting now.

The new Offspring album is phenomenal.

I don't think my poetry is helping me feel better... I don't think any writing is making me feel better. I'm too full of shit pent up and writing just isn't a good outlet anymore. I don't know what to do...

Obviously my anger peaked and the wall got a little smashed up but I don't know how to control myself anymore.

I should see a doctor. I need medication.

I was inspired a little bit by a friend the other day. A lot, actually. Anyway, I wrote this because of the things he said.


I don't need you to always be right
because sometimes I need to be wrong.
How else will I grow, learn or ever move on?

Let Me be wrong. Let me see.

any good?
comments much appreciated.

goodnight,
Marshall

I leave them in walls when I'm angry.

Oddly, tonight my hand doesn't hurt after.

Also, I don't think my mom has noticed yet... it won't be fun when she does.

is what I am. Maybe it's because my uncle passed away, and I'm can't go to his memorial today, maybe. I didn't really know him, so it wasn't a hit to me. I mean, of course I was sad about it, but I didn't get emotional, or cry or anything like that. So basically, I don't know why I'm sad.

I am going camping tonight, and I'm real nervous about that... I've never gone camping and we are just going into the woods around here... kinda stupid, huh? We are just going out for the night so we should be fine, but I'm not taking chances, so I'm bringing a nice little weapon.

Also, today is day six without a cigarette and right this minute I really really really want one. Ugh. I won't, though.

I have nothing more to say.

Have a good weekend everyone,
Marshall

I did a lot of thinking. Also, I personally picked $19,639.23 worth of merchandise today off the shelves (it was a slow day).

My thinking has led me to a conclusion. If my one talented friend wasn't leaving for the Navy, this idea would be better, but as it stands, It's just me and my other talented friend. And he likes to blow me off alot. Pity too, this idea could revolutionize the way the music industry works.

Alright, what's the idea? Form a band that plays their music in every genre. Not in one song, of course, but one song will be played over and over and over in different genres. Then let the listeners go online and buy which ones they like best. Of course, I counted 18 distinctive genres today off the top of my head, and a 10 song CD would make 180 different songs.. 10 songs, played 18 different ways by the same band.

Now, that in itself would be an arduous task, which is why it will never happen, even if my two talented friends hung out and the three of us worked together really hard.

Before my friend leaves for the Navy, I'm going to try to get him in the studio to record a song 18 different ways... I think we'd both be pretty psyched to see that happen.

I made it seem as though I was dead set against working someone on my ideas... I'm not. I enjoy that. What I don't like it people trying to dumb my shit down. Every idea I get for something for youtube, my friends want to make it stupider. I don't, I think it'll be good like I said...

I do actually want to go out and say I WANT help on writing my stuff. If someone out there reads this and is at all interested in writing/directing a film with me, please contact me.

Yep.

But I'm the best looking.

Hahaha, no but seriously, my friends are much more talented than I am. They can all write music and pretty much succeed with everything they try... Me not so much.

One friend likes music, so he teaches himself every instrument around him; bass guitar, guitar, piano, drums... He's really good too. Writes some of my favorite music. He has people that love his music and want CDs of him playing. He is trying to strike a record contract.

Another friend, very similar story. He loves music, so he takes lessons to learn guitar, and from there teaches himself drums and everything possible to know about music editing and equipment, all the while messing with Sythesizers and now HE has people that love his music enough they want to buy CDs of him. He actually might have a record deal coming, but he won't divulge that information to me.

Me. No good with music, although I did win an award in fifth grade for the trumpet, but the other people in the band sucked terribly, so I deserved that one. But with my writing, my friends like it enough to read it when i hand it to them, but who would buy my stuff?

These two guys took what they love and did something with it (or are in the process off). Me? I'm still working on finishing my first story. I do make movies with my friends, but it's ridiculously stupid shit (hmm... I'll have to touch on that in the next paragraph...). I would like to film a feature length film, edit it and have it be distributed. That would be awesome... but not gonna happen any time soon (actually, I'll have to touch on this in a few paragraphs too...).

I make dumb videos. Why? Well it sure as FUCK isn't because I want to. I don't want to make the videos of terrible quality that flood the web (read: my videos thus far). I want to make good stuff. Stuff that doesn't make you think, "this is terrible" even before we fade in (or load the page in the case of the internet)...

So, here's the reason: my talented friends. They want to help me, which is great and I am so grateful for that... but... They want to help give me ideas. I don't need help with that guys, I have the ideas, that's why I always write the stories and (try to) direct the films... I need help with finding locations, costumes, props, actors (if we don't have enough between us...).

Also, your ideas... suck? If my script calls for a black person, it's a bad idea to do the scene with one of us in black face. We can just call a black person, I know some, they are my friends. If I say we need to do a dance around a car, don't say it should be around a tree, or that something should fall onto the car, or anything equally stupid. I had the idea, go with it.

It sucks most, not that you guys try to be a bigger part of the stuff, but instead I just say, yeah I guess we can do that... because I'm a pussy and I don't wanna be a dick. But shit, it's my ideas, my camera, my computer... I think I can say no. It's not rude for me to be stern and tell you guys I want what I envision, and if they don't like it tough. It's not their life on the line. (well, not mine either, but let's assume I finally put my foot down and make something really good and then my career takes off).

Alright, now, enough blaming my friends... What can I do about making money from this and making it my life? Well, I can finish a script (that can't be that hard... right?) and try to get some funding from people and companies I've made friends with in my many (ha) years. Offering screen credit or (obviously) money from it's release as incentive are the only things I would be able to offer... i hope that's enough.

Yeah, but what do I do to get the movie made? Oh, that's simple... I'd just get my friends that like to offer the best ideas and tell them not to give me and ideas this time... just do their job (in a much nicer way, of course), and max out a bunch of credit cards, and then just fucking do it. Film it with friends and people in the area that will work for nothing but a screen credit. Editing is a cinch, Friend Number Two up there at the top is also a master at film editing and special effects. The truley sucky part about actually producing the movie will probably Film. Not filming, but the actual Film. I gotta do it right and buy $5 a second 16mm film... Ouch... Do the math with me... 10 hours of footage, at $5 a second... shit i'm looking at a few grand right there... Then there's processing the film. Ouch again.

Ok, assuming I do all that. My movie is done. I have a DVD, VHS, Raw Film, and any other format I want... How do I get this shit distributed? Well, I just happen to work for a (non namable) DVD Distribution company. I can always try to sell them my movie, but for some reason I can't see them paying me enough to cover all my debts from even the lowest of budgets. The film itself is going to be more than I've ever had in my life. Then of course I'll have legal fees, a cast and crew that wants some retribution... it's gonna suck.

But such is life... and such is what I'll have to do.

That's all I got (a lot today, huh?), take care,
Marshall

I haven't had a cigarette since Sunday. It's hard. I want one.

Usually when I try to quit if I do good for a day or something I'll let myself have just one... but just one becomes just two... and then I don't even care. So this time, I won't give myself any, but know I really fucking want one.

Alright, a bunch of new videos on the youtube page. Check them out, please and thank you. Don't forget to rate, comment and share the vids. Many more on the way. Yay!

My buddy and I just hung out today for the first time in a long time, and finally got some filming done together and came up with an ass load of ideas to get started on. What we're working on now is silly, but we are just trying to get a grip on the filming game right now... Neither of us have made any real video in about 3 years... shits changed since then. Better cameras, new software, new computers... we have to figure it all out again.

Well it's late and I don't know what else to say, so...

the worst.

this post isn't of importance either

Hey, reader! See all these ads on the screen? They are thanks to a combination of Google and Project Wonderful. I am trying to raise some money through the traffic of my site, however, I don't want to be annoying. So being as this is the second post about the ads, I hope it will be the last. If you are on my site and think I should change/remove the ads, let me know!

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My old website, www.disgracerpg.com is about to be redone, but I don't want to code it myself! Why? I'm fucking lazy! I have done the site myself in the past but now I just don't want to. If you do the code for my site (i just want a new color scheme and such... nothing big) I will give you free advertising... foeva!

after this, I'm posting two more times. Each of importance.

It fucking sucks... But at least I can write all day, which I plan on doing.

When I finish this script (and I HAVE to finish it. My friends are pretty much putting guns to my head for me to finish it (I've told 5 people the storyline... each of them says it gives them chills when I finish... is that good?)) I will first register it with the WGAe, and possibly copyright it, although from what I'm reading lately, just going with the WGA is good enough (and some sources say doing even less than that will suffice).

After that I will upload it on Fox Searchlight's website. I do believe this can open a door quickly for me, as long as someone accidently clicks onto my page.

Lastly, what I will do, is make a whole bunch of copies and open up the phone book to random pages. I will choose anywhere from 5 to 20 random people and I will send the script to them. I'm not worried about anyone stealing my story since I'll have legitimate proof that I was the author. What I hope to acchieve with this is hopefully one of the random people I send it to will like it, pass it on and then that person will like it and pass it on... until it hits someone who can help me make it real.

This is kind of a terrible idea, and I know that... but that's why I won't do that until I am a filmmaker OR I'll just do it with a script that I didn't care too much about. There would be no way to stop people from stealing it, even with my copyrights.

Alright, I'm gonna go take a bath in ice now, take care everyone,
Marshall

this very moment. My girlie was staying over last night, and at around 2 am, I woke up because she was leaving. I don't know why...

I think she's still sleeping so I can't call her and find out if everything's ok... hmmm.

Also, our air conditioner is broken and we're in quite a ferocious heat wave here... it's terrible.


That's all for this post, I'm about to post another talking more about an idea I had a while back.

Dear [Insert Particular Name Here],

I was today told that I don't understand how you feel. Fuck that. Don't act like no one else can't ever feel sad, and can't ever know what you are going through. I have Tourette's Syndrome, OCD, Depression, Anxiety, no foreseeable future, and a drunk for a mother that seems to have a problem decided how she feels about me... So I guess your right; whatever is making you sad right now can't possibly compare to the things that burden me every fucking day.

I have actually tried to kill myself, buddy. Yes, I have. You just write about it in text messages. Ok, so you can't possibly say that I don't know how you feel... I have felt much worse.

DON'T EVER text me or my girlfriend again threatening to kill yourself. Either kill yourself, or don't. Don't be an attention seeker.

Recently, you have taken up writing, because you say you look up to me and were inspired by me. Thank you for the compliments, and congratulations on being able to put pen to paper. You do it very well. But from now on, it would help not to write morbid, depressing, or painful thoughts. I have learned this, so if you are going to emulate me, do as I do, and write the opposite. Find what would make you happy (and I'm fucking positive you know what would make you happy) and write that.

This letter is not bitter, it is not angry, it is what I should say to your face, but never ever will.

A while back (I think...) I posted about a story I got an idea for that I was too nervous to write. Well over the weekend, I read up on how to write a script and also read the script for American Pie. After that I was ready to write a script, and not just a silly one like usual.

So I started the story. The title right now is Marble Wishes, but I don't like that... so it will probably change soon. I do, however, like the fact that Marble Wishes isn't a generic, or boring name. I'm about three minutes into the movie, so not much has been written although a lot has already happened. Not too much, but enough to make the audience say, "Wow, this is going to be very interesting."

How this is like my Goodbye Writing... Well, in my reading over the weekend I realized that I can finish this script, send it off, and if I never get a call back, who cares? I can re-work it, or just scrap the idea for years to come and forget all about it. What will it matter if the story isn't bought? That means I didn't do well enough (which would somewhat confirm my belief that I'm a shitty writer).

I suppose the only problem I have right now (aside from having not a single finished story) is that I don't know where or who to send my script to when it's finished. I actually sent my cousin a message on facebook recently (he's a film school grad) asking him what to do when I finish writing, but he never responded... how rude! Haha, oh well, I'll figure that out as it comes more into mattering.

Take care,
Marshall

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